I’m going to have to call my doctor on Monday because the last couple of weeks have been completely unbearable.
I don’t know if it’s because it’s the tail end of the school year (six more weeks til we get out) or I’m just trying to put too much on myself and pushing myself too hard or what but I am exhausted. Like, I haven’t been this exhausted since before my thyroid issue was initially diagnosed. I normally only drink 1-2 cups of coffee every day but for the last three weeks or so, I’ve only been able to get through the day if I have 2 cups in the morning before work, I pick up a Diet Dr. Pepper Big Gulp to keep me going through work and then either another Diet Dr. Pepper Big Gulp in the afternoon or at least another cup of coffee. I’ve been passing out at around 8:30, when I don’t have horrible insomnia that keeps me up till all hours, which doesn’t make things any easier the next day.
It doesn’t help that I’ve been essentially pulling double duty at work this week because one our team members had a personal implosion. She’s a 4 hr person like me, so she works 20 hours a week just like I do. But she also has a part time job elsewhere and I guess it just became too much. She called out Tuesday and Wednesday, tried to come back yesterday and within 5 minutes (she hadn’t even clocked in yet) was crying in the manager’s office so the manager sent her home and she’s not coming back today either. We had a sub yesterday, but she was worse than useless so I ended up doing most of my absent coworker’s stuff for her. While I’m trying to be understanding, it doesn’t make it any less sucky.
I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me. I wish I did. I’m tired of being so exhausted I can barely function right now. I don’t know if this is because my thyroid is way fucked up or if I’m having a depressive flare or if the thyroid being fucked up is CAUSING my depressive flare or what. And it SUCKS.