Mostly because I don’t know if I should continue to blog or not. If it’s worth it when nobody reads it (well..outside of YOU guys and you know who you are) or even gives a crap. When most of my “subscribers” (or whatever) are just idiotic bots because that’s what I seem to attract the most of.
Sometimes, I would think of things I wanted to share and then said, “Oh no wait, I can’t. What if I say the wrong thing and somebody gets upset and sends me a threatening letter..again?”
I’m still not convinced that I’m NOT going to get sued by You Know Who even though I haven’t heard a peep out of him in about 3 weeks now. He’s turned into my own personal boogieman.
I…just don’t know. Like..I want to grow my blog and shit but then I when I try to find out ways of doing that, it just seems like an AWFUL amount of money (which I don’t currently have) and work (which I don’t want to do, because I’m lazy AF). Plus there are the tax implications of starting a business, as I recently learned when my husband had a minor meltdown over me selling a hand-made blanket via Facebook Marketplace (which I didn’t actually sell because he was too afraid the IRS was going to come after us so I took the posting down to calm his anxiety).
I’m trying to work my way through my current depressive episode, which is only making my anxiety that much worse but there’s only so much I can do on my own. I don’t have health insurance at the moment (due to Hubs’ new job he started in July) so I have to just rely on myself.
I’ve been hanging out at 7Cups.com a lot (which has been semi-helpful) and breathing and praying like a novice nun and doing a LOT of crochet and eating..well..everything. It’s not good for me, I know, but I try to balance that out with going to the gym and pedaling to absolutely nowhere for an hour while I watch Netflix (which I am borrowing from a friend who has it but says she doesn’t watch it enough but she doesn’t want to NOT have Netflix so..win?).
This is, ultimately, a bump..no..a RUT..in the road that I’ll eventually find a way through or out of or SOMETHING.
Song of the Day: Just Give Me a Reason–Pink